hi world
it's 2 am and I'm staring at my macbook's screen, wondering how I should start off this post and explain why this attempt will be different, instead of being yet another relic in my internet footprint that I'll have to half-purge in 5 years time. i mean, there is the advantage of this blog being under a pseudonym that I will never tell anyone about, using some chinese word that sums up my feelings for anybody that dares to pity my poor writing. is it weird? yea def but I don't care.
anyone that's close to me or aware of my personality can easily connect the dots and figure out who I am, but again I honestly don't give a shit anymore and it's just not that important to me right now. right now the main objective is creating somewhere to vent and think about things, without any fear of repercussions or thinking about why I abandoned my projects or blah blah blah. whatever, I'm going to sleep.